Music

I am in the progress of recording a new, full-length album. It’s been on the forefront of my mind for years now, but I have felt as if my hands have been tied behind my back. I had gotten to the utter bottom in terms of finances and I had finally reached a point to where I had gone over a week eating nothing but pancake mix. It was then that I took a step back and got a full-time job as a web developer.

The last 2 years have been a building of sorts. I started my own tech company and have worked frantically to build software in an effort to create the means to be able to pursue music, while still paying the bills.

It’s funny how God never seems to operate in the same time-scale as we do, but the results often far surpass that of our own dreams.

I’m now in a situation where I can pick my own hours and work remotely, while still have the opportunity to afford building a studio and getting set up for tours. I’ve learned that there is something powerful in the freedom of being able to create art without the pressure of having that art pay your bills.

The album I’m creating now is done in my own studio, and I finally have the free time and the resources to make it happen the way that I want it to.

Here are some songs that I recorded in the past. Enjoy them and stay tuned for my new album and my new tours to be set up!

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Fall

I met a girl one summer night in San Diego. We had spent the evening talking at a quiet coffee shop, and afterwards, we drove to the top of a scenic overlook and sat under a blanket on the roof of her car, with our legs dangling in the sunroof and the entire San Diego skyline in front of us.

The following day, I realized that, because we lived 1500 miles apart, I would probably never see her again. I let myself feel the pain of that, and I realized that there was something about the pain that felt good. I had spent so long not feeling much, that the pain of longing was somehow refreshing.

Sometimes feeling pain is better than feeling nothing at all. I think life is defined by a stream of moments of ups and downs, and if you fail to have any, then it’s almost as if you aren’t existing. Sometimes I feel like gravity is the only thing keeping me alive – and if it comes to standing still, or falling, then let me fall.

I never did see her again.

Here’s to a magical summer night in San Diego, and to spending the next day in an empty house next to an old, out of tune, upright piano – finally feeling alive.

Cruel The Me

Living life on the road can be difficult. You can be in a place for a week and meet some of the most incredible people, but when you come back in a year, everything changed and those relationships you cherished could be entirely different. I found myself getting used to this kind of transient style of relationship and could soon identify with the lyrics of classic rock songs talking about being a “rolling stone”.

This is a song about a girl that I let get too close. I knew that I wasn’t ready to settle down and that my lifestyle wouldn’t be able to give her what she deserved for years. She had managed to get close for a reason though – she was beautiful and charming.

This is a sad song, outlining how my own foolishness turned into cruelty.

“I’m a fool to have left you, but a foolish man the more to have stayed behind.”

Beckoned

I’ve spent my life in the church. I’ve seen the good sides and the bad. I’ve seen the church heal and I’ve seen it wound. At the end of the day, I think that so many people listen to someone else’s take on God. They mold their entire view on Him, based off of a good or bad experience they had from church or a person they know who may or may not represent God.

Sometimes I think it’s a good idea to just hear a perspective that is in first-person. There’s something powerful about hearing love and acceptance, untainted by theology and perspective.

While there certainly isn’t anything wrong with insight from others, this song aims to confront the critic and soften the attacks that many may have felt, unjustified or otherwise from the church.

I Was Only Dreaming

This song came from a place of a lot of frustration. I’ve dreamed of playing music my entire life, and I always seemed to get so close, only to have it not work out for one reason or another.

 

Time after time I felt as if I was incredibly close to a big break, and it never seemed like it would fully work out. It made me introspective, wondering if there was something that I could have done, or if I was missing something. This song encompasses that frustration.